Sunday, February 28, 2010

No Fond Reunion

When my daughter got back from Florida yesterday afternoon, she went to the barn to check out Miranda - I wasn't home at the time. I'm sad to say that there was no fond reunion. Miranda was violently aggressive in the paddock - my daughter is a very skilled horseperson and was able to drive her off and then approach and halter her, although it wasn't easy. While tied, she exhibited some behaviors my daughter has never seen before, including a trancelike bumping of her head against the halter, pawing and rearing. My daughter was able to remove her blanket and replace it with a lighter one. Both before and after being released, she exhibited some of the possibly neurological behaviors I'd been seeing - my daughter has never seen these before - including head-shaking, face-rubbing, rearing and compulsively repeated rolling. My daughter said the eyes stayed hard and cold the whole time she was with the horse, and that her behavior is more unpredictable and "disassociated" than before.

I think we're pretty clear at this point that there is something very seriously neurologically wrong with the horse, and I think we know where this is going. Your thoughts and support are very much appreciated.

18 comments:

  1. I'm sorry to hear that and will pray for peace with whatever decision must be made.

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  2. So sorry. Obviously Miranda is troubled by something even she can't deal with. You know that you have given her every chance possible. This is very difficult, but I know your daughter (and you) will do what is right.

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  3. I'm sorry to hear the reunion didn't go well at all. I feel sorry for all of you, especially poor Miranda.

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  4. I was really bummed when I saw the title. That just really sucks. You, your daughter, and Miranda are all in my thoughts as you make a very difficult decision.

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  5. Poor Miranda! Sounds just like my friends warmblood Bologna. If you want her email I am glad to give it.

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  6. Kate,
    Miranda's deterioration has been observed by you, now your daughter has seen the changes, even your husband commented on Miranda's condition; there is no doubt by your words and deeds how much you love and care for your horses and how deeply ingrained they are in your soul.
    For you and I, your daughter, and countless of your supporters who read your blog, there are some decisions we must make concerning our horses, our herd, that are filled with so much heartache it is near unbearable and difficult to see past the conflict of choice. I know for me, even after a decision has been made and actions have been taken I have suffered some remorse, some second guessing for what I chose to do . . . rationale is easy, it's the compassion that gets me mixed up.

    “Only in the agony of parting do we look into the depths of love.” George Eliot

    ~jon

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  7. I'm sorry, this is terrible news. Not surprising, but still terrible.

    Miranda's release will be the kindest gift she can be given. It must be terrible to live in that head, convinced that the world is constantly a threat.

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  8. Kate,

    I am so sorry to hear this news. I will be thinking good thoughts for all of you.

    I know this sounds naive, but is Miranda on different grain/hay/supplements than when she was at your daughter's stable?

    If she is back in her old environment, with all the same foodstuffs in her body for a week and she still is displaying this behavior, than I would say you could say there is something permanent going on. Right now, there might be too many variables to tell.


    ****Unbelievable!!!! My word verification right now is "masies" - given our too Maizies/Maisies - isn't that weird!?!

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  9. oops- duh...I meant "two" not "too" - ugh!

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  10. I'm sorry to hear this Kate, is there anything 'medical' that you can do? Please pardon my ignorance if I've missed something.

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  11. Oh, that is too bad. I had some hope that maybe she would connect with your daughter a bit... Shoot.

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  12. After I saw her in the Photo's/ videos you displayed of the mare Miranda, I was so shocked. I have never seen such a thing and would have been very disturbed to try to continue with her. You both have been so very loving and professional .
    Is it just me or has it got progressively worse since you started to write about her? I think the medical society would like to examine her in autopsy maybe. Please know that I said that as something to HELP others in the future ad she, the poor thing, has no control over herself.

    Love to you and praying for your heart to be at peace for she may be suffering.
    Xo
    KK

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  13. I'm surprised she was aggressive with your daughter. At this point, she would be the best judge since she knows Miranda's past and current behavior. Sometimes it's more merciful to end suffering--but it's never easy for us to make that decision. My best to you both.

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  14. Very sorry to read this. You are all in my thoughts *hugs*

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  15. It must have been so troubling for your daughter to see Miranda this way after making such progress with her in the past. Difficult decisions ahead, for sure.

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  16. wow, that's really tough. She is a tormented soul.
    - The Equestrian Vagabond

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