Friday, February 28, 2014

Me, Me, Me, Me . . .

Blogging, when you come right down to it, is essentially talking about yourself - what you do, how and why you do it.  It's fundamentally pretty darn narcissistic.  And to prove the point, here I am talking about myself - how I feel about blogging.  Can't be avoided, I guess.  And I think this is true whether you're talking about your horses, or cooking, or your garden or your house renovations.

And blogging is about trying to be interesting, and noticed, and approved of - looking for those comments and page views.  It's a form of showing off.

Just like any other form of writing, but with the immediacy of the internet added in.

But despite this, and my discomfort with the egoism of blogging, I'm going to kept on doing it, at least for now.  But I'm going to try to change the tone a bit and see if that makes a difference to how I feel about it.

For me, this blog is the narrative of a journey I'm taking together with my horses.  I'm not a trainer and have no pretensions to be one. I can't say that anything my horses and I are doing is special, or different, in the grand scheme of things - it's just what we're doing and what works for us, and it feels very special and important to us.  My horses and I feel some moments of real power and magic, and we'd like to share that with you.  We don't know if any of you will think it's interesting, and we certainly don't think that what we're doing necessarily applies to you and your horses, although it might - this is something you have to figure out for yourselves.

Dawn and Red and Pie and I will do our best to be honest with you about our successes and failures and our moments of deep connection and loss of that connection.  These are wondrous times we're sharing together, in all their small moments, and we hope you'll continue to share our journey.

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  1. I totally agree, sometimes it feels like we (well I) am bragging about what we did! But I mostly use mine as a way of tracking what I am doing with my horses and how the journey is going. I don't have a lot of commenters,and that's OK but I can always look back and see what I have done with each pony and know I am accomplishing something when all feels lost.

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  2. Crystal - I like being able to look back at what we've done and where we've been too. I also guess I keep blogging because I believe that the magic and connection we sometimes feel, and are always searching for, is something that is there for the finding, for all of us and our horses.

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  3. Kate, I think there are a ton of benefits to blogging, not just for the readers but for the writer as well, and it all happens as we each talk about ourselves and others read. When you talk about your journey, and I get to read about it, I learn what works for your horses. I hear about what you have learned, either by trial and error or by schooling or what ever, and I can decide if I can apply that to what I am doing with my own horses. Some times I can, some times not.

    Oddly enough, I was just wondering the other day if blogging really serves any purpose for me other than to use up some of my time. Today I got a phone call from one of my neighbors who has recently started following my blog and specifically about the roller coaster ride with my lame mare. Turns out that one of the things I learned, am using, and posted about, ended up being what one of her horses needed too. At that point I realized that blogging is, yes, a little self serving as we talk about ourselves, but at the same time it is about sharing information with others who share our love with horses. That is a beautiful thing and if it makes the world a better place for equines, then it is golden.

    Thank you for sharing your journey with us.

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    1. Cindy D - those are good thoughts - I'll try to keep them in mind.

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  4. I always enjoy reading your blog! I don't always comment, partly because I often catch up on blogs whilst hand-grazing my own horse, but I would be quite disappointed if you quit. You have a lot to share.

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  5. I like what Cindy said. What I like about your blog is the way you describe things that you do and accomplish -or not- with your horses, and I have been able to apply a lot of your insight to what I am doing with my horses. I think any kind of shared knowledge or experiences with horses is beneficial even if it's only the little things- because you never know what might really click for someone else.
    I like to use my blog as a diary, I can go back and look at anything from weather to the dates I did certain things, and I find that it has really helped me to grow artistically as well.
    Glad you intend to continue!

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  6. Kate...good to see you back on my links. My blog is actually a journal and it follows me around each day. Why people tune in is beyond me. I've met so many fantastic souls along the way both online and in person. Love the connecting thread that we seem to share. You are free to post whatever is important to you and people are free to read it or not. To me, it is not worth the energy to worry about it, or what they think. The gratification comes from the communication part and believe me, you are one informative person! What will be will be and you are worth reading, that's for sure. (Besides, you tell me what my weather is going to be the next day).

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  7. I for one quite enjoy reading about your horse journey. However it might feel it does not come across as narcissistic or condescending , I am impressed with your determination and insight , keep on going please!

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  8. Hi Kate, that was one of the reasons I took a break from blogging a while back. Even though I am back doing it, I`m sort of reticent about it now, Not sure if what I put on is of any real interest to anyone, when a person blogs, its assumed that someone might find it interesting. Great if they do, for me it got to be a little uninteresting, as the day to day seemed to be samey? So to be honest, I`m not sure if it works anymore. Besides, your right, it does feel a little like bragging.

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  9. Now Kate, you may think it's all about you...but really it's all about me, because I love reading your honest (and often profound) insight! In other words, I'm glad your back and blogging again!:)

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  10. Kate, I share your sentiments too. I'm NOT a trainer. And, I have no specific agenda for my horses. I'm just glad they are safe and happy. I have DAYS when NOBODY leaves a comment...oh, well.
    Cheryl Ann

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  11. I look forward to your blog posts Kate. You have great insight and I think it's wonderful that you take the time to share experiences, not only for your own purposes, but so other's can glean from it.

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  12. No-no-no,,, don't quit your blog !!!

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  13. I also need to add,, that I have learned so much from your shared experiences

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