Blogging, when you come right down to it, is essentially talking about yourself - what you do, how and why you do it. It's fundamentally pretty darn narcissistic. And to prove the point, here I am talking about myself - how I feel about blogging. Can't be avoided, I guess. And I think this is true whether you're talking about your horses, or cooking, or your garden or your house renovations.
And blogging is about trying to be interesting, and noticed, and approved of - looking for those comments and page views. It's a form of showing off.
Just like any other form of writing, but with the immediacy of the internet added in.
But despite this, and my discomfort with the egoism of blogging, I'm going to kept on doing it, at least for now. But I'm going to try to change the tone a bit and see if that makes a difference to how I feel about it.
For me, this blog is the narrative of a journey I'm taking together with my horses. I'm not a trainer and have no pretensions to be one. I can't say that anything my horses and I are doing is special, or different, in the grand scheme of things - it's just what we're doing and what works for us, and it feels very special and important to us. My horses and I feel some moments of real power and magic, and we'd like to share that with you. We don't know if any of you will think it's interesting, and we certainly don't think that what we're doing necessarily applies to you and your horses, although it might - this is something you have to figure out for yourselves.
Dawn and Red and Pie and I will do our best to be honest with you about our successes and failures and our moments of deep connection and loss of that connection. These are wondrous times we're sharing together, in all their small moments, and we hope you'll continue to share our journey.